Ok. Some of us suck as shooters. My manhood forces me into denial. But no more - I am taking the pledge. My name is Mablt and I am not a gifted natural shooter. I owned an XD.40 and shot it well enough. I can hit the broadside of a barn first time every time. I can even hit the narrow ends. (10 ring at all CCD testing distances.). But it was a big pistol to carry concealed so I went out and bought an XDs .45. Truth, it ate me up first 100 rounds. It literally bit me two places!! It tore a thumb nail on slide recoil, and my soft trigger finger got pinched between trigger guard and bottom of trigger!! I fired 6 rounds at a silhouette target from 30' and could only find 3 holes in the paper. WHAT!?! I shot at 21' and was still just 5/6 in paper! WHAT!!?? I shot at 15' feet - 6/6 but only 3/3 in the body!?! Oh my God. The rangemaster will pull my mancard!!!! It must be the gun! (Oiled, cleaned. Damn it cycles just fine). It must the fool who put the large caliber in a small gun! (Wait that guy on You Tube is shooting it just fine! What faked video is that!!?) It must be my small hands!!! (What, girls shooting better than me on you tube?!) It must be the grain load!! (A box of 125g, 165g, and even a 230g!! And I still suck as bad on each!!). It must be the phase of the moon!!! Ok I realize I need to sell this POS!! But damn, I bought it at the post Sandy Hook bubble peak, and can't sell it for what I got in it! And I really really like how it feels in my hand; and, I really really like the big bang of the .45 round. Oh woe is me!!! It dawns on me, selling it would be quitting. I don't do that. Time to look in the mirror. I need to admit I need to improve as a shooter. It starts with the pledge "My name is Mablt and I am not a gifted natural shooter." So, I added a Talon grip skin. That helped my grip. The big chunky factory grip marks were uncomfortable on my office worker keyboarder hands. The Talons smoothed things out and make more grip surface with my skin. (I own Hogue's on other pistols, just went with Talon for thinness as this is conceal carry pistol). I re-worked my two handed grip. This guns dimensions and weight are very different from my XD.40 and I realized I was holding them the same. I worked out adjustments in my grip to get my thumbs outta the slides way. And I practiced the grip over and over. I got some muscle memory so it came automatically. Then I practiced my trigger pull. Yes. Yes. I was anticipating the big hand jarring boom as I pulled past the reset. So I focused on a firm initial grip - much firmer than I needed with my XD.40, and practiced that. Then I worked on a steady trigger pull with that firmer grip. And the anticipatory flinching began to fade. One day I realized "hey, two mags and all 12 are in the 9 ring!!" "This gun is MY gun now!!" Then I stuck one through the x. My name is Mablt and I am not a gifted natural shooter. It has been three months since I last thought I was.